Someone vs Anyone

So the dreaded Vday has come and is almost over. I have survived and made it through relatively unscathed. I was surrounded by little celebrations at work and friends in fantastic relationships. I felt a little jealous at times but I'm doing okay. It truly is singles awareness day today. I felt a little overwhelmed at times but I stayed strong. It's just a day! A few funny pictures lifted my spirits.

Today really got my thinking about the possibility of Someone versus the reality of Anyone. What I mean by that is Anyone is available anywhere. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm young, educated, successful, funny, confident, I'm not supermodel material but I'm not Quasimodo either. I can run to the bar this weekend and find a guy to fill the Anyone void. I can even go out on a date a feel zero connection to Anyone. There's nothing wrong with Anyone either. He has come into my life many times in different forms. There was attraction but not chemistry, it was impossible to have a conversation, we had nothing in common, he got wasted before the appetizers were done. Anyone is a great guy. He's just not the guy for me. And he is all over Mcmurray. The guy not looking for commitment, the douchebag, the here for a good time not a long time, the more dollars then sense guy. Success comes hard and fast in this town. It can suck a good man in an spit him out with a 8 inch lift and truck nuts. But not all men in this town are bad. And there are a thousand other towns with vices just as readily available. Mcmurray is becoming more and more of a hometown. We can no longer hold this town responsible for the actions of a few. I still believe in Unicorns because I see examples of them in my friend's husbands. I know dozens of couples that have met here so I know it is possible.

That brings me to Someone. When I'm with Someone I can be myself. He accepts that I am weird. Really weird. He loves that I tell the worst jokes. Thinks its great that I can get behind any movie as long as someone falls in love. Knows that I am loud and obnoxious at times but I really have the best intentions. And Someone has all the great qualities I look for in a man. Gives me the giggles every time I see him. He is real. He does exist. He wasn't behind door number 1, he might not be behind door number 50 but I refuse to give up hope. I have been hurt before, badly. But I'm not afraid. I know you have to get your hands dirty and work your butt off for the things you want in life. I could get hurt again, but I won't let that stop me. Something I thought destroyed me actually made me stronger. 

Being single is hard. Things are heavy, bugs need killing, I hate putting out the garbage and cooking for one blows. But I have a fantastic family. I got a text 5:30am text from my Dad wishing me a Happy Valentines Day. He wanted to be the first. He could have waited until tomorrow and still be my first Valentine but he's the greatest for thinking there was a line! I have a great job and my health. I also have some of the greatest friends a girl could ask for. Especially Bestie. She's right there with me, another Single and Fabulous McMurray girl. 

If you have a good foundation, the rest will come. Just have to keep your head up and know that Someone is out there. He could be in Mcmurray because it is a town full of promise, growth and good people. I just hope the other single ladies in this town have a Bestie like mine. Someone who pushes you to put yourself out there. Step outside your comfort zone, know that you are perfect and eventually everyone finds happiness. She is the Rachel to my Monica. Everyone needs that. And one day soon she's going to push my directly towards Someone.